Writers have all heard the recent stories – small, and seemingly not-so small, presses and indie publishers closing their doors. Most seem to close in the face of the ever-growing marketplace where money is harder to find and share between everyone, where press and publisher overheads will always be more than self-published authors because they have to split the royalty the platform pays out even further and pay key people within the company, not least the publisher themselves.

But this blog post isn’t to bemoan the state of the ever decreasing industry, or the increasingly limited options for authors who don’t want to self publish, it’s to say goodbye. Gone is the first ever edition of What You Wish for, published through Three Worlds Press.

I knew it was coming. The publisher let everyone know very kindly, so it wasn’t unexpected, but it being gone is worse than I anticipated. In fact, no. I can cope with it being gone. Worse is the ‘currently unavailable’ status that it has achieved on Amazon – like some ghost ship doomed to sail the waters of failed publishing forever.

And I didn’t expect to feel shame, either. Yet I feel ashamed that my book is gone because every single person who doubted me when I said I was going to write and get my book published is now technically ‘right’. This time last year, I had no books published. By Christmas 2015, I had three. Now, I have two remaining. I know these aren’t bad odds, but it has put me off my stride a little.

It wouldn’t be unreasonable to suggest my house is the tidiest it has been all year while I have thrown my energy into not-writing. I’ve thought a lot about writing, and I’ve got at least 12 story beginnings (I know, I know. It’s an illness, I’m sure.) crying out to be finished. Or at the very least, given a decent middle.

It’s very self indulgent to lick my wounds after the orphaning of just one books, but I’ve been doing just that. 🙂 As I said in the brief face book post I put out, I’m sure What You Wish for will be back in one way or another and maybe in another dimension it never went away in the first place. In the meantime, I will be working on other things.

In celebration of What You Wish For, and in recognition of the fantastic cover artist, Magali Fréchette, here is the cover it was first published with. I now need to go away and decide what to do with the book. Magali has retained all rights to the cover, and it is with her kind permission that I am able to use it here. She’s great to work with, so definitely check her out if you need a cover, or any art work for your book.



If you’d like to check out the two books still out there with my name on the cover, head over to my books page, or to Decadent Publishing. Thank you so much for your support.

A Thoroughly Modern Goodbye
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2 thoughts on “A Thoroughly Modern Goodbye

  • *hugs* Dealt with it last year, and dealing with a press closure now (Jupiter Gardens Press), and it’s never easy. There’s this gut punch that you don’t realize, because the publisher was a support or presence in your writing career, and now they’re gone. It definitely hurts.

  • Thank you for the shoutout, Gina!

    I can’t even imagine what you’re going through, but I know it must be tough. Still, I know you’ll figure everything out, even if it takes some time, and I’m sending you all the positive vibes! <3

    Good luck with all your stories – you're the only one who can write them, so don't stop! ^_^

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